When I was growing up, my parents told me I could be anything I wanted to be. With hard work, dedication and education I could set my mind to do and be anything I could dream of. I wholeheartedly believed this. I worked, I educated myself, I dreamed BIG dreams and I accomplished a lot. Then I had kids.
What I realized was in the details of my parent’s wisdom. I could be and do anything I wanted to, but I couldn’t do it all. I had to chose.
A good friend of mine, who happens to be a very intelligent, high-powered attorney, no-shit kind of woman and mother recently said to me that she doesn’t know what to tell her daughter. “I don’t think I can honestly tell her she can ‘have it all’ because I’ve seen first hand that it’s not possible.” My friend has made many excruciating decisions about her career because they often meant less time with her family. She had to choose. Sacrifices were made.
I established and ran a successful personal training and fitness business for five years. After my twins were born a series of events brought me to one of the hardest decisions of my life – sell the business or put my two year-olds in full-time day care. I chose to sell but really, I had no choice. Yes I was lucky enough to not have to work but it didn’t mean I didn’t want to. It didn’t make it any less painful and I struggled.
Almost three years later, I have accomplished a whole host of other things, and I have never regretted my decision to sell. Not even once.
But next year, though hard work, education and dedication, I want it all. No I’m not opening another fitness studio, I want to achieve success in the marathon, triathlon, writing/blog-a-thon and the elusive mom-a-thon!
So my BRF (best running friend) is kind of amazing and crazy, which is why we’re friends. She ran her first marathon this past fall and qualified to run Boston in 2016. However, she thinks she can have a better race then the one she ran, and wants a marathon “do over.” I completely get this. She suggested I run a spring marathon with her, and qualify for Boston 2016 so we can do it together. So I’m going try. I mean, what are friends for?
PS – This will be my first marathon since 2007. Luckily, I’m so old that the BQ time of 3:45 should be attainable.
I’ve been hinting at it for some time now, not to mention all the pool time I’ve been racking up, so I’m sure it’s no surprise that I will be focusing on triathlons in 2015. My goal is to qualify for Nationals which is no easy feat. In order to qualify, I need to place in the top 10 women in a local race. Right.
Now, you may be thinking that I can so do it (and thank you for the vote of confidence) but duathlon and triathlon are two very different animals. Let’s not forget it took me two years to qualify for duathlon Nationals. And I’ve only ever done a sprint triathlon. And I’m turning 40. I’m going to stop typing now, otherwise I will talk myself right out of this whole thing!
This is an endurance challenge of epic proportions but I think I’m up for it. I want the boys to finish up Kindergarten with better skills then they started with, have an amazing summer, and be raring to go into first grade.
Holy shit, I seriously cannot believe they will be going into first grade.
I want to be more present and spend more time readying them for the homework demands that will come with all-day school (they’re only half-day kindergarten) not to mention teaching kindness, sharing and all that other crap you have to learn so you’re not labeled a bully and can become a productive adult, blah, blah, blah.
I have my work cut out for me.
I have quite a few blogging goals and even more for freelance writing. I’m really enjoying writing for Fitbie, RunHaven and Learnist and will definitely continue in the coming year. As for the blog, I absolutely love writing in this space for all of YOU who read it. Every time I start to think what a self-centered, self-fulfilling bunch of BS this is, I get a comment or an email or phone call supporting something I’ve written, and my attitude is slapped back into reality. And no, they’re not just from my Dad.
I won’t be blogging as often in 2015, and I can’t promise any mind blowing content, but I can promise to be my authentic self and almost never filter my brain dumps.
So there you have it. A glimpse into what will be in 2015. And since I have such lofty goals and I’m reaching for the ultimate in fitness, career and family life, I’m taking a blog break. See you bitches in 2015!
What are your goals for 2015?
What do you think about ‘having it all’?
Are you taking a break over the holidays?